Alone i lay on a wooden raft

Alone i lay on a wooden raft
Alone i stay in the dark
Alone i pray to survive
Alone i may not survive

Alone i look out the sea
Alone i wake up on the sea
Alone i seek out for help
Alone i may not survive

Alone i eat my dry food
Alone i drink the salty water
Alone i sit in the cold
Alone i may not survive

Alone, yes, alone i stare at the storm
Alone, yes, alone i live on the sea
Alone, yes, alone i wait for the rescue boat
Alone, yes, alone i may not survive

Alone, yes, alone i pray to be safe
Alone, yes, alone i call out for help
Alone, yes, alone i get on the boat
Alone, yes, alone i was rescued

Alone, yes, alone i lived on sea for months
Alone, yes, alone i walk ashore unaided
Alone, yes, alone i continue to hold the
Guinness World Record for survival at sea

Allenika …

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Alone I cried again

Alone  I cried again
‘Alone I am with me!
Lonely in a world of mist
Alone, I reach to touch your wrist
And see if I am thee.’

To be alone beside a soul
Afloat, adrift; an empty ghoul
Alone in woe; the yearning flesh
To fill a thin, contorted mesh
Diffuse atop an icy floor, alone.

So much alone in fact, I lack
The tonal vibrancy of life:

I am a song without a tune
alone;
A greying sky in June
alone;

The blueness of a sullen moon
– waning in a starless night–
alone;

Coasting down a weedy pass
alone;
The only image in the glass
alone;

To meet a certain heavy fate
– to turn and shut the knurly gate–

…alone.

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Alone I cried again

Alone  I cried again
‘Alone I am with me!
Lonely in a world of mist
Alone, I reach to touch your wrist
And see if I am thee.’

To be alone beside a soul
Afloat, adrift; an empty ghoul
Alone in woe; the yearning flesh
To fill a thin, contorted mesh
Diffuse atop an icy floor, alone.

So much alone in fact, I lack
The tonal vibrancy of life:

I am a song without a tune
alone;
A greying sky in June
alone;

The blueness of a sullen moon
– waning in a starless night–
alone;

Coasting down a weedy pass
alone;
The only image in the glass
alone;

To meet a certain heavy fate
– to turn and shut the knurly gate–

…alone.

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I keep looking for comfort from you

I keep looking for comfort from you
I sit and wonder if your love is true
You see me crying
Inside you have to know I’m dying
Don’t you see these tears
Don’t you see the hurt from so many years
The little girl that was hurt so bad
Is now 30 years old and utterly sad
No one to listen or even to talk to
Recalling memories that hurt me through and through
The things you ask of me
It triggers a memory
Memories I’d rather forget
Memories embedded in my mind, completely set
The hurt, the pain and anger won’t go away
I wonder who “loves me” and will turn their back today
I can’t explain how I feel inside
Feelings of abandonment rush in like the tide
Ghosts haunt me no matter where I go
I do love you still, that you should know
I wish you could understand
I would be there holding your hand
I would take away all your pain
So in the end, you’d have a life to gain
But for me, darkness is all I see
No happiness for this little girl is to be
The adult lives her life
Taking on happiness, sorrow and strife
I hope someday you’ll understand
Someday I hope you’ll be here to comfort me and hold my hand
Until that day all I feel is punishment
Along with those never-ending feelings of abandonment.

© Angela Fernatt

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Im the girl who hides behind a smile everyday

Im the girl who hides behind a smile everyday
I’m the girl, who has a tough exterior.
But that’s not who I really am.
I’m the girl, who has a lot of problems,
But doesn’t share one thing.
I’m the girl, who keeps everything bottled up.
Sometimes I just need someone to talk to.
Someone to care about me.
Someone to listen to my problems.
Someone to hold me when I cry.
Someone to love me.
Nobody knows the real me.
Nobody knows what I go through everyday.
Nobody knows what I have to do just to make it through the day.
Nobody knows that I’m the girl who isn’t who I say I am.
And I’m the girl who will cry herself to sleep every night.

Jillian Baker

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Im the girl who hides behind a smile everyday

Im the girl who hides behind a smile everyday
I’m the girl, who has a tough exterior.
But that’s not who I really am.
I’m the girl, who has a lot of problems,
But doesn’t share one thing.
I’m the girl, who keeps everything bottled up.
Sometimes I just need someone to talk to.
Someone to care about me.
Someone to listen to my problems.
Someone to hold me when I cry.
Someone to love me.
Nobody knows the real me.
Nobody knows what I go through everyday.
Nobody knows what I have to do just to make it through the day.
Nobody knows that I’m the girl who isn’t who I say I am.
And I’m the girl who will cry herself to sleep every night.

Jillian Baker

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Love Is that what I crave

Love Is that what I crave
If it is, then why can’t I find it?
Hate. Does that mean anger?
If it does, then why do I feel hollow?
Pain. Does that mean suffering?
If it does, then why does it feel comforting?
Memories. Are they not images of the past?
If they are, why is there only shadows?
Smiles. Does that mean happiness?
If it does, then why does it hurt?
Life. What does it mean?
Should it mean any of these things?
If it doesn’t, then why are they there?

Cara Jayde Mackellar

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You pass me on the street and out eyes briefly meet

You pass me on the street and out eyes briefly meet
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile,
you have no idea that my heart is in denial.
You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.
My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.
Once you lose your soul there is no turning back.
Everything you once dreamed of no longer has an impact.
You don’t want to love nor do you want to have fun.
Your days are so long the problems in your mind make you question if you should carry on.
You smile so that’s what people see on your face,
they think that you are happy but deep down inside you feel like a worthless disgrace.
Each day the performance you put on for people is Emmy award winning,
But you question yourself and wonder if you act is just a way for you to hold off your own internal sinnings.
When you wake up from a night’s sleep you wonder to yourself if today is the day your heart will be back to it’s old self or will it still be skipping every other beat.
You wonder if things that once made you happy to be alive will make a comeback.
You wonder if the little things in life that made you who you are will have you once again dreaming to the stars.
You wonder if you will feel less empty hearted.
You wonder to yourself who holds the match to start that fire.
You’re tired of running and losing your breath.
You want to hold tight to something that will help you once again enjoy the journey into lives amazing treks.
You want to feel that every day can be better than the last.
You want to turn your lost soul feeling into a thing of your past…..

 Randall Pela

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Her thoughts bob under the surface

Her thoughts bob under the surface
Her lost dreams circling around her in clouds.
Every fake smile, fake laugh,
Only feeds the emptiness inside.
She’s lost the ability to cry,
Surrendered it to the numbness,
So she no longer has to feel.

The thick, black cloud overcomes her,
Smothering her till she suffocates.
She gasps, while inside her,
Everything is torn apart,
Her heart ripped to shreds,
And repeatedly stabbed,
With a rusty dagger.

Her soul screams as the Demons rip into it,
Those horrible monsters.
No. They’re her Demons.
Her horrible monsters.
she’s her own monster.
The guilt eating her alive,
As she slowly kills herself…

From the inside out.
She seems fine on the outside.
The same laughing, smiling girl she’s always been.
The scars she keeps hidden the only sign.
A silent scream.
But no one notices.
Or do they just not care?

She’s so alone.
She’s always been alone.
Ever since the shadows ate her essence,
Sacrificed herself to the cold tendrils of sin.
False promises tempting her away from the Light,
And into the barren Darkness.
She’s always so LOST…

Inside her own body…
It seems her hands have a mind of their own,
As they slice her arms,
Her ankles,
Her thighs.
With the blade she’s always kept as a close companion.
The same rusty razor.

She watches the blood as it leaks out,
Down her arms and thighs.
Her release from the never ending cold.
But its not enough.
Its never enough.
Not when she carries the weight,
Of the world on her shoulders.

But she knows what is enough.
She stares at the bottle of pills,
Knowing, this is her escape,
From the Darkness that surrounds her.
I’d be quick,
Painless.
She’s already slowly killing herself.

Destroying her soul.
No one can help,
They’ve tried before,
And they helped…
For a while.
But then she was back to faking her joy,
With the mask that became her best friend.

She began starving herself,
She could never look good enough,
She found joy in each ache of hunger.
It meant it was working,
She was going to be skinny.
But it was never enough.
How could it ever be?

When she couldn’t resist food she’d stuff herself,
Then made a point of throwing up,
She pushed everyone away.
Stuck in her solitude.
Her shadow her best friend,
But soon the shadow was her.
A forgotten ghost…

Just a piece of who she was,
Who she used to be.
Left behind as she slowly killed herself,
She’s only a shadow,
A wisp in the wind.
Never finding happiness.
She lost herself.

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Alone with my thoughts

Alone with my thoughts
Alone in my dreams,
Alone in the night,
Alone with my screams.

Alone in that place between sleep and awake,
I lay here alone and wait for daybreak.

Alone in my room,
Alone in my bed,
But I’m not alone in my in my heart or my head.
For your love is forever in my heart,
Your smile forever in my head.

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I hurt alone I wept alone

I hurt alone I wept alone
I fell down then I stood alone
Were You there watching me?
Why did then i felt alone?

It was grey down here
I called your name
I thought of You
And called your name
Were You there hearing me?
Why was then I left alone?

I hurt alone I wept alone
I fell down then I stood alone
Were You there watching me?
Why did then i felt alone?

Kalpak Kaplash

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Alone with you is where I long to be too

Alone with you is where I long to be too
Alone together is the place where we should be
Alone without your words
it’s you that I miss too

Alone I feel your touch
Alone today just feel like too much
Alone I don’t want you to feel
Alone soon I hope you will not be

Alone and it’s you I barely know
Alone a while longer and I will come to you
Alone this hunger that makes you ache
Alone this feeling my flesh can’t hardly take

Alone this feeling soon you won’t have to take
Alone with you I know will be home for me
Alone with you soon will come true
Alone you kiss me goodbye in your mind
Alone but your heart beats with mine

Alone and why is timing so unkind
Because with me, alone you will not find

Fragile how you are, strong and patient you will find
You I need, wait for me and alone you will not be

josee dube

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Alone i am in the rain

Alone i am in the rain
wishing and wishing for it to rid my pain
alone im spraled out on the floor
alone in the darkness i couldnt ask for more
alone as i cry these salty tears
alone dreaming about my fears
alone a am but why
why would i lay here and die
why is my being alone always the answer
why is being alone part of my disaster.
alone i am in my fairytale dream
the darkness around me wat does it mean
alone as the cold drapes over me
forever alone i choose to be.

crystal thomas

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Alone with you

Alone with you

Alone with you is where I long to be
Alone with her is where you are free
Alone with me is no place to hide from this
Alone without your words, it’s you that I miss

Alone I feel without your touch
Alone today just feels like too much
Alone the tear on my cheek
Alone these words that make me weak

Alone and it’s you I barely know
Alone a while longer and I must go
Alone this hunger that makes me ache
Alone you must take a sanity break

Alone with me could be home for you
Alone with you may never come true
Alone I kiss you good-bye in my mind
Alone and why is timing so unkind?

Mary Lyle

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I am like the fallen wish

I am like the fallen wish
So lonely as a fallen star
My bed a pool of tears I cry
Alone! ‘ I cry myself to sleep
‘Alone I am with me!
Lonely in a world of mist
Alone, I reach to touch your wrist
And see if I am thee.’

To be alone beside a soul
Afloat, adrift; an empty ghoul
Alone in woe; the yearning flesh
To fill a thin, contorted mesh
Diffuse atop an icy floor
All alone I am alone

Too much stare much nightmare
Only thee walls
Can speak and share
loneliness a disease
Thee only cure is care

I am a song without a tune
Alone
A greying sky in June
Alone
I am a wedding without a groom
Alone
I am a ring without a hand
Alone

The blueness of a sullen moon
waning in a starless night
Alone
Coasting down a weedy pass
Alone
No rainfall no fallen leaves
Alone
The only image in the glass
Alone

I am so alone!
Alone like a fallen star

khalifa mustapha

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Let me stay alone

Let me stay alone
Only alone.
Let me stay alone
And let me stay
As a sensible man.
Let me stay alone
Only alone.
Let me stay alone
With emotion
With caution.
Let me stay alone
Only alone.
My emotion my sensation
Is mine and it is
For general welfare.
Let me stay alone
Only alone.

gajanan mishra

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Let me stay alone

Let me stay alone
Only alone.
Let me stay alone
And let me stay
As a sensible man.
Let me stay alone
Only alone.
Let me stay alone
With emotion
With caution.
Let me stay alone
Only alone.
My emotion my sensation
Is mine and it is
For general welfare.
Let me stay alone
Only alone.

gajanan mishra

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Standing alone at night

Standing alone at night
Standing alone with nothing but my heart
Standing alone and walking along
Standing alone but singing a tune
Standing alone at night with nothing but my heart

Joe Johnson

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THIS POEM THEN AT THE END OF THE END

THIS POEM THEN AT THE END OF THE END

This poem then at the end of the end
When there are no more friends
And nothing is left to say
But only lonely I go my way
Because no one goes with us when we die
And no one holds our hand against the worms of the sky
And no one no one knows where our soul sighs
And whether God says hi or goodbye
And why oh why oh why do we die
But here in fear those we leave behind
Those who love and know what we at our best were
We make them cry when we die
And all we wish to stop and make never to be
We cannot
Because no one tells us how to forever not die
No one can
Alone alone alone to our end then
Alone alone alone to never be anymore here
Alone alone alone into the ground and under the stone
Alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone
Never to be here we with us on this earth in joy and love again.

Shalom Freedman

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Alone with my prayers

Alone with my prayers
Alone with my thoughts
Alone with my screams
Alone in my dreams

Alone in my bed
Alone in my head
Alone listening to nightly whispers
Alone watching the shining stars

Alone in the first sunlight
Alone to celebrate my joys
Alone to cry out my sadness
Alone to hope for rainbow lights

Alone to voice out my fears
Alone in my strength
Alone in my relief
Alone with my smile

Alone in wealth
Alone in bad health
Alone I try to find the answer
Alone I seek knowledge

Alone, yet surrounded by too many loved ones
Alone, I try not to be alone
Alone when my time has come, I pass away
Alone was best for me.

Néha Who Else

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